CLEAN HANDS, PURE HEART
3 minutes read I started to type, and then I realized I don't have the exact words to convey my thoughts to you. I'm going to have to find the words regardless, and I know I can, because this is something that is very dear to me, and I have struggled with quite a lot. The first time I realized I had clean hands, but not a pure heart, I felt really sad. I couldn't understand it. I couldn't understand why I'd imagine myself doing things I had never done, and hoped to God that I'd never do. That went on for a while, and I was really irritated by it, until a particular Sunday. The preacher at church encouraged us to speak to our leaders about the things we struggle with, because it was necessary for our freedom. At this point I was simply tired and wanted to stop having those thoughts, so I waited after service and went to see a counsellor. I did not understand at the time, but he was asking questions relating to the things I take in. He wanted to know if I looked a